I tried to turn over and go back to sleep but there
was a little voice in my
head shouting " Bryan is home today!!!" I leapt up and
looked at
my watch. 7:30. I could get dressed and meet him at the
airport if
I hurried. It had been so long since I'd seen him and
I could
hardly wait!!
Let
me
explain. My name is .
Mostly called ,well by Bryan anyway...I'm and I
live in
Artane in Dublin. When I was 3 we moved to Artane, next door to a
really nice family. Bryan, his Mam and Dad and then
his sister
Susan. We became friends straight away me and Bryan
and we have
been best friends ever since. Since he's been in
Westlife I've
seen him less and less but our friendship has grown
even
stronger. But that's all we are - friends. And I'm
glad to keep
it that way. I know I love him but I can't figure out if it's as
my best
friend or if I love him as a boyfriend. Anyways, it
doesn't matter
cos he only loves me as a friend. That's the one thing
that's for
sure. Or so I thought.....
I arrived at the airport at 8:30. Bryan's flight was
due in at
8:40. I stood nervously around,looking at the
fans, standing with
their posters and cameras, waiting for Bryan....and
Kian, Shane, Nicky and Mark but I couldn't think of
anyone else but
Bryan. It had been soo long.
I heard the girls scream loudly and I quickly
looked
up. Kian was walking out, smiling from ear to ear. He
looked more
tired than I've ever seen him but he still looked
great. I
smiled to myself as I thought of the night out we
would all have
tonight. Next, Shane and Nicky walked out. Nicky
quickly spotted
Georgina and rushed to her and they hugged and kissed,
with all
the fans watching. I thought that was really great,
the way that
Nicky could kiss his girlfriend and all the fans were
OK with it.
If that was me I would be scared the would attack me
or
something!! Soon I spotted Mark, followed closely by
Bryan. He
scanned the crowd. Then he saw me. I was standing out
from all
the fans on my own. He looked right into my eyes and
smiled. I
smiled back at him and gave a little wave. Girls were
now
surrounding him, asking for pictures and his
autograph. "I'll be
over in a minute" he mouthed to me, "OK" I mouthed back.
He signed
his autographs, our eyes barely shifting from each
other's gaze.
The fans were happy. They had met Westlife, gotten pics
and
autographs so now the ladz were free to leave. Bryan
came
straight over to me. We didn't speak, we just threw
our arms
around each other and I felt something I had never
felt before.
My whole body tingled with excitement and I didn't
want to let
him go - but I had to. I pulled away "Hi Bryan!"I
smiled "Oh
" he whispered, pulling me back into his arms
"I've missed
you soo much!" And we stood and we hugged each other
till Kian
and Mark came over."Hey Bryan, Let someone else have a
turn!"
said Kian grinning. Bryan let me go and Kian hugged me
"He
didn't stop talking about you all the way over on the
plane.." he
whispered in my ear "I think he missed you!!" I
blushed but
smiled, "You look great Kian," I said, "Tired, but great!"
"Aww,Thanx!" he gushed, joking. I laughed and hugged Mark. We
were all
chatting away but the whole time I couldn't help
noticing that
Bryan couldn't take his eyes off me and I was exactly
the same
with him.
"Bryan!Kian! "I yelled "Wait for me!!" Bryan stopped
and laughed
"You don't think we'd go without you do ya?" "No..." I
said "Well
I hope not....for your sake!!" I gave them a menacing
look and we
all laughed. We were on our way out and I was taking
longer to
ready than I usually did. Bryan and Kian were getting
bored and
threatened to go ahead without me."Why did you take so
long?" asked Kian "You're usually the one telling US to
hurry up!!"
I blushed and smiled at Bryan shyly. I had never felt
like this
before. Not about anyone but especially not Bryan.
Bryan was the
last person on earth I expected to fall for and now
after about
15 years of knowing each other....I thought I was in
love with
him. I decided to wait till me and Kian were alone
and ask him
what he thought.
Kian was one of my best friends after Bryan and I
could trust him
with anything. I waited until Bryan had gone to the
bathroom in
the club, then motioned Kian over to a quite corner of
the club.
"Kian,I have to tell you something...but you have to
promise not
to tell anyone else...Especially not Bryan......" I
said "Go on,
. You know I won't tell anyone.." he said " OK,
"I paused,
then sighed "I think I'm in love with Bryan." "WHAT?"
shouted
Kian as the volume of the music raised "I CAN'T HEAR
YOU!" " I
SAID I THINK I'M IN LOVE WITH BRYAN" I yelled "Oh!" muttered Kian, suprised.
"So what do you think I should do?" I asked
him.
"Umm......"he said " maybe you should tell him" "Tell who
what?" asked Bryan returning. " Oh Hi Bryan! Nothing -
doesn't matter" I said quickly, trying hard to hide my
embarrassment.
We stayed out very late and we had a great time. Bryan
dropped me
home to my appartment I shared with my friend,
who was
away staying with her parents for a while. "You coming
in?" I asked him
"Just for a few minutes" he told me, smiling .We both
knew that
when we said a few minutes we meant hours 'cos when we
started to
talk we just couldn't shut up!!
It was so late when we stopped talking long enough for
Bryan to
look at his watch and exclaim "Oh my God! It's 6 am!!"
I laughed
"You shouldn't bother going home now, you can crash on
my couch
if you like" I told him "Thanx" he smiled "I'd better
get to bed"
I said, "I can't even say how great it is to have you
home, Bry. I
missed you a lot." He stood up and hugged me tightly "I missed
you too - just ask Kian!!" "Goodnight Bryan.." "Night
" he
replied, kissing the top of my head. If it wasn't so
corny and
not to mention un-hygenic, I'd have said I'd never wash
my hair
again! I smiled at him and went to bed.
I woke up the next morning smiling. I could hear Bryan
moving
around in the kitchen."Morning Bryan!" I yelled.
"Morning !!"
he called back, then knocked on my door "Can I come
in??" he asked.
I fixed my hair quickly then said "Yeah,sure!" He
opened the door.
I had to keep myself from gasping. He looked more
gorgeous than
ever before and my heart began to race as he sat at
the edge of
my bed. "Did you sleep well?" he asked, handing me a cup
of tea"
Thank you Bryan. Yeah, I slept OK. You?" "Not
great.."
he admitted, "I have to tell you something ...."
I drew my
breath in. There was a long pause..... "Your couch
isn't very
comfortable!!" I laughed, a little disappointed that
he didn't
say what I wanted him to and in a way a little
relieved.
That afternoon the lads were doing a sound check for a
concert
they were doing at The Point Depot.
It was their first concert in Ireland on their own
with no other bands like at the Childline concert.
They were all so excited! I arrived at The Point just
after Bryan,
with my friend who knew all the lads really
well. We gave
our names to the security guard and he gave us our
passes. We
walked inside "!!!!" yelled Shane, running over
to greet
us. "Hello Shane!!" I cried hugging him "You look
knackered " he
said, concerned "Are you OK ?" "I'm fine! I was just
up late last
night...I was out with Bryan and Kian!" I explained
"Oh yeah....I
heard" he said "Did you have a good night?"I nodded,
smiling. "Hi
" he said, giving her a quick hug. She blushed
even though
she knew Shane really well she still was very shy
around him and
most people in fact. "Hi" she said.
Suddenly someone came behind me and wrapped their
arms around my
waist. I jumped and looked around "Oh Jesus Nicky!" I
cried "You
gave me such a fright!" He laughed and gave me a hug
. "You look
brilliant" I said. He smiled "Thanks, you're looking pretty
good
yourself!" I laughed."Where's Bryan?" he asked me "I
dunno"I
shrugged "He's parking his car" Shane said "Are you
nervous about
tonight?" I asked. "Kinda" said Shane, smiling "I'm
really excited
though!" and Nicky nodded in agreement. Then Mark and
Kian
appeared."Hiya!" I said ,smiling at them. "Hi!" said
Kian "Did
you sleep well last night?" he asked "Yeah fine.
Why?"I asked
puzzled. He pulled me over to one side "Bryan rang me.
He said he
stayed at your place. Did anything happen?" "NO!" I
cried "We
just talked about where you lot had been and stuff
like
that......I just couldn't tell him...I'm soo scared
that if I
tell him he won't feel the same and he won't want to
be friends
anymore!" ",you know Bryan..He would never do
that...tell
him. You know you'd feel better if you told him." he
said "Yeah,
your right, I suppose. I tell him soon" He hugged me
then went
back to where Shane,Mark,Nicky and were
standing.
"...And it's like Flying without wings cos you're my
special
thing. I'm flying without wings...." Mark sang strongly
at the
soundcheck. Myself and were sitting in the front
row of
Block A in the Point as the lads rehearsed. They
looked as if
they were having a lot of fun and they laughed a lot.
Bryan, who
would usually be the first one to start messing or
joking, was
unusually quiet. When they had a break I asked him
about this
"Bryan, Is everything OK??" "Yeah,"he said smiling
"I'm just a
bit nervous about tonight" "Oh yeah, I can understand
that!" I
replied "But thanks for being concerned!" he said and
hugged
me. "That's OK" I said "Now go on back...Shane's
calling you!"
"OK "he said "I'll talk to you in a while, yeah?" I
nodded and
watched as he ran back onstage. He smiled at me and
pulled a face.
I laughed and returned to my seat. I knew now I had to
tell him
how I felt. I couldn't go on much longer hiding it and
wondering
if he felt the same. "I'll tell him tonight, after the
concert" I
told myself "Definitely tonight..."
It was later, and the concert was almost over. They
were
brilliant and I was nearly bursting with pride as I
saw my best
friends on stage making so many people happy. Then I
started to
think about what I had to do after the concert. My
stomach
started to flip and I started to sweat. After they
finished 'I
have a dream', Bryan took his mike and started to
speak "Well,
its nearly time to leave" he said "but before we go,
there's
something I have to say before this next song..." he
paused "This
song is not on our album, but those of you who have
the 'Flying
Without Wings' single will know it. Normally Shane and
Mark sing
this song but tonight they are going to let me take
over because
it's a very special song and it's for a very special
person. You
know who you are. This is 'Everybody Knows' "
And he started to sing. He sang better than I had ever
heard him
sing before and as I heard the words it all made
perfect sense
and all my fears disappeared.
"It's never to hard to find the words, the words to
say to you,
You make it so easy just to talk, the way we talk things
through,
You're never too tired to care, you're never too busy to
just be there,
And when I smile my feelings show, so everybody,
Everybody
knows"
The rest of the lads joined in at the chorus
" Everybody knows this love's for sure,
There's no searching anymore,
No one ever doubts you're mine,I'm yours
That's the one thing that's for sure
And everyone we know says all the time,
They wish they had a love like yours and mine"
"Even people in love say I'm a fool, for loving you
too much,
But we were the exception to the rule , for us its
not enough,
They used to say we're out of touch, now everyone
wants to be like us,
Not afraid to let it show
Now everybody, everybody knows"
He finished the song and at the end there were tears
falling
from my eyes. I grabbed my bag and my backstage pass
and ran to
the doors. They did one more song then came off stage.
I stood
waiting for Bryan. When he came out it was like at the
airport,
we just threw our arms around each other and hugged.
But this
time some words were spoken "I love you, "he
whispered "I
love you too Bryan" And finally we kissed.